One of these days I am going to punch her. If she doesn't learn to shut up.

A couple weeks ago the mother told me that it's all in my head, that my siblings don't have the problems with her like I do. (which btw, they do, they just don't voice it to her and it's not as severe, i will give her that, but she acts like they don't have ANY problems with her, which just isn't true)

I almost punched her then. But instead I turned and walked away, out of the room, out of her sight, so I couldn't hit her.

She has no idea. She doesn't understand why the things she says to me incites me... but sometimes, the smartest thing to do is that when you know that something incites someone - even if you don't understand why - is to just shut up and not say those kinds of things.

But the mother, apparently, isn't that smart.

eta LATER:

I HATE MY DAMN FUCKING LIFE

both of my parents I HATE... BOTH are hypocrites... and BOTH SUCK at communication, but unlike me, WON'T admit it!

REALLY??>!!!!!!!!!!!?????????????!!!!!!!!!?????????

GOD WHY DID YOU PUT ME WITH THESE STUPID PEOPLE???!!!????!!!!

I've been called...

- not acting like my age (& if I'm not, then neither are they)
-selfish (WHF, they are just as much as I am!!)
-rude (then so are they, because again, I was called on that for stuff I LEARNED to do from THEM)
-lots of things that I am too tired to repeat

My Last Hope: is Moving Out

i don't know why this always happens to me. i mean, i've already started school, was up way early today, and i still can't get to sleep!! I took a sleeping pill too. I would take another, but i have to get up early again tomorrow (stupid meeting!!) and two makes me sleep 12 hours. which i can't do.

anyone know any good sleeping supplements? like, other than sleeping pills? or a different brand? (don't remember what i use... but any that works is good with me!!!)

I more than hate my life right now. I despise it. at this point, i don't even know what to do.